[version 19.0]

3.26.2009

the beautiful ones they hurt you every

time
and time again
you cross my mind
again
and it seems to never fail.
you walk into the room
and everything is
you.
everything is
illuminated with your
presence
and that
frightens me
[just enough to attempt to stay away from]
you don't seem to
u n d e r s t a n d
that you bring out
the best part of
the worst part of me
and
darling,
that just won't
[do without you? are you asking such an absurd question?
well I simply could]
never before has the
attraction been this
intense
and
damn,
i
w a n t
y o u.
[i want you so bad.]

# ranting @ 9:12 PM
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3.23.2009

silence.
is it so much to ask for
unprecedented
unadulterated
pure
silence
in this world of chaos where not even your mind
can be quiet
I cover my ears and close my eyes in some sort of
[futile]
effort
to shut out the world
and hold hands with my ever-so-fleeting
and
all-elusive
silence
yet
somehow
I'm stuck here
inside the noise
[that is your voice]
inside my head
and I can't
find
my

# ranting @ 10:04 PM
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3.22.2009

this is the most
honest
emotion I have ever felt
in my short life.
here am I
throwing my hands up
in defeat
...I don't know what to do
about how I feel about you.
what can I say?
what words would express the emotion
truly enough
[I'm
t o n g u e - t i e d
and
lost for fragments of sentences
at the thought of you]
or do I simply remain silent
as you sit there
thinking not of me
but of your life
filled with
complicated things
and
simple pleasures
how desperately I am
[wishing never saved this damsel from her distress
as she waited for her prince in her wedding dress]
hoping
simply hoping
against hope
that you
stare into the sky
at the stars burning against the blue-black expanse
and think of my name
as I close my eyes
and let my heart call yours.

I want to be yours.

# ranting @ 1:20 PM
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3.21.2009

it began as a simple hello.
Walk in the park.
Stare at the clouds.
Hands clasped together
we would face the
big
bad
world
Just us.
We walked a long
winding
road
[that I thought was]
leading to your door.
I never thought of it ending
where

________________

# ranting @ 2:51 PM
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it hurts
my eyes
to stare
into the sky
because the rain drips in.
head down
watching my feet take turns hitting the ground
I've learned to keep my heart inside my sweater
rather than on my sleeve
I've learned to leave
rather than ever love hard enough to be
scarred by the
bruises that come with
falling
so I watch my steps
o h
s o
c a r e f u l l y.
fear of heartbreak
and of watching his back as I'm left in his
afterglow
fear of having to know
the terror that comes with falling
and the sore muscles that come with getting back up.
I won't
so
I can't
so
I don't.
And
I'm
[scared to fall in love with you because I fear that you'll leave me like the rest of them but I truly am]
Sorry.

# ranting @ 3:02 AM
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3.20.2009

[[in your eyes I'd like to stay]]

with the breezes of an
impending thunderstorm
against my face
and
through my hair,
I thought of you.
I remembered you
in all of your
mysterious
and
cynical
glory.
I knew I would be
thinking of you
listening to the
song
that seemed to be
written for us.
but it never bothered me
as much as it did
when I swore that I could
smell
your cologne
in the wind
1000 miles away from where you'd
[be here with me, please, I need you. I can't do this alone...not without]
you could never fathom
all the
emotions that run along the cracks of my
[horribly broken and hardly mended]
heart.
...with that being said...

...i think i love you.
_________________________________________________________

# ranting @ 5:33 PM
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...be the one to brighten up your day...
Yeah yeah.
And the point of it all is [[i LOVE YOU]]

I like Anthony Hamilton quite a bit.
He's awesometastic, methinks.

Mmk...here's the thing.
I used to have all of my wonderful poetic musings on Xanga...but I don't really like Xanga anymore.
[It was sort-of a hasty realization...last night I decided that I disliked Xanga, and I wound up here.]
Anywhoo...I'm here now...and I'll be posting my most recent poems...
[The ones that I like best ^_^]
And you [[wonderful one person who is reading this]] will have the chance to read them!

You can thank me later.

kthxpeacendlove
-b

# ranting @ 5:30 PM
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3.19.2009

and it seems to

make my eyes
water
thinking of you.
here lie I
wishing that instead
I were there
in your arms.
[...hello dear, I miss you quite terribly]
and I could never bear to say
even
half of
the things I think
when I sit here alone
wondering what you're
wondering there where you are
...the only place I want to be.

nowhere near close...
you're still so far.

# ranting @ 10:38 PM
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